How did you even find us?
#60
Sometimes I feel lost. Like there will be 6 days out of the week where I feel like I can conquer anything, but one day where I just don’t know. I don’t know if I’m doing the right thing, if I’m headed in the right direction, surrounded by the right people.
When that happens it would be great to turn to a father type figure, but that’s just not something I’ve ever had. Can you miss something you never had? I doubt it, but you can see what other’s have and how it affects them, and long for that-knowing it can never happen. People tell men all the time to get over the “daddy was never around” excuse and I agree with not using it as an excuse, but I can’t lie and say I didn’t need that. When my dad was alive he was in and out—only really around if he had something to give me. I always thought about that: if he thought he was wasn’t worth enough himself to just come around without a gift. Parents are people too and they go through a lot that we will never know. So, as a human I feel for his soul and everything he endured. As a man, I never asked to be here on earth, and since you brought me here the least you can do is guide me.
I don’t know.
Just kind of rambling.